For the past seven months or so, my life has been way too full. I haven’t devoted my time to things that keep me sane: reading good books and writing drivel in my journal.
I’m a natural introvert which means I derive my energy from being alone. Interacting with people ALL. THE. TIME. can drain me. This is a considerable challenge since I have small children at home. However, I can honestly say God has graced me with an inordinate amount of patience and staying power when the house feels a little to crazy for my introverted ways.
He’s also recently opened up space in my time to do those things I love, things I crave. What did I do with this freed up space in my schedule? I hopped on over to the library and checked out a bazillion books to read. I spent more time at the computer wrestling with nouns and verbs. I hung out at the park and slid down the slide with my two year old. I read “Curious George Takes A Job” with my four year old a thousand times!
I’d like to spend less time feeding my Facebook addiction and spend more time in literary/writerly pursuits. I also want to spend more time with my kids. You may think it odd I say this because I spend all day with them already, but I haven’t been intentional about my interactions. I haven’t taken the time to see the world as they see it, or really listen.
As spring approaches, I am also approaching a new season in my life. A season where I’m learning to embrace what God has already placed in my hands, instead of fretting and worrying over what I don’t have. (The grass may not always be greener.) A season where I’m accepting of how He has created me and the experiences, both good and bad, which He has allowed in my life.
In this new season, I want to learn how to live life as it happens, moment by moment. I don’t want to look back with regret on what could have been or worry about what could be in the future.
A daunting task, but a worthy one.
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